We have a wonderful conversation with Joshua Richards of the JRR Talking Podcast. He is a former minister, former addict, and now he’s Living After Faith.
Content Note/Trigger Warning: We discuss sexual assault, emotional abuse, bullying, PTSD, and suicidal thoughts.
We figured we should probably talk frankly about our mental health and life challenges that led us to go on podcast hiatus. Deanna Joy discusses a lot of the things she has been through in recent years in detail, hence the CN/TW.
Here it is: Our first official announcement of our return to podcasting. This special crossover episode was one of the most fun we’ve ever done. I didn’t think we could alternately laugh so much and have serious conversation all in the same session. We’re eternally grateful to Amy with a Y and Ami with an I of The Secular Soup Podcast for doing this with us!
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Way back in 2013-ish we had the good fortune of speaking with PZ Myers in our studio in Seattle. Even back then, we thought maybe we were being a little too cynical about the direction of the atheist movement but when we look back now, I feel like we were still so innocent. Such a great conversation.
We thought we were pretty knowledgeable about many of the branches of organized religions, but Ed Suominen absolutely blew our minds with his story.
Content note: There’s talk of some pretty intense practices, death, abusive reproduction control among other things.
We recently traveled to New Orleans for a wedding and while we were there we met up with a couple of old friends. You get this special two-part extra long show!
You’ll remember Chad as our very first guest way back in episode 11 in 2010. Life has brought him and us some very big ups and downs since then. He’s now playing music in NOLA and trying to live his best life. We sat on his porch and chatted and got to listen to him play some lovely riffs.
Jerry’s podcast and info can be found here: https://hopeafterfaithpodcast.com/
Amazing what a good sleep can do. Magic sleep meds are working quite nicely. Upping the Prazosin has my dreamer completely shut down, so no more terrors in the night.
Lunesta doesn’t leave me groggy when I wake up.
A couple days ago I worked through a panic attack/flashback at work, and was pretty pleased with how I handled it. I recognized it and controlled my response. Inside I was still a mess, but that’s the nature of the beast. Deconstructing it with Deanna helped me understand where this latest dose of hell in my brain is coming from.
Last weekend I had a good long talk with a guy who’s been dealing with this shit for decades. At first I was depressed. Decades. It means I’ll never be normal. But then I looked at his life, and he’s a caring, giving, and content person. He still deals with shit, but he has his life under control and it’s a good life. So I’m encouraged.
Sometimes people are critical of me when I slam religion. I do it because I know what it’s done to me, and what it has done and is doing to millions of others.
Here’s the latest from the Shrink.
I start Lunesta today, and double my double my dose of Prazosin to 10 mg.
I’m on Lexapro, but still too early in the ramp up process to tell if it’s doing anything.
Clonazepam for emergency relief during panic attacks.
Ritalin for focus at work.
For a while I bragged about being med-free, but always said I would go back on meds if I needed to. A series of events triggered some wicked flashbacks, panic attacks and blackouts.
We start again, knowing more than we did, and with better help and support than ever.
I share this because I know many of you care. I also believe it’s vital that we bring mental health issues to the forefront of discussion. I’m doing that.
Thank you for caring and for your support.