– LAF Returns – Episode 63

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LAF returns with our worst, and possibly best episode ever? Thanks to everyone who has supported us through our time off.
The episode we release tomorrow is rough. People who have heard our other episodes will hear a lifeless chill in my voice. Only in listening back to it did I realize how dead I still am inside. But I’m so much more alive than I was a few months ago.
It’s hard work. The work isn’t over. All I know is I will survive, not because of my own strength, but because I have a wife who is awesome, and I have a community that is stronger than any individual could ever be.

Amazing what a good sleep can do. Magic sleep meds are working quite nicely. Upping the Prazosin has my dreamer completely shut down, so no more terrors in the night.

Lunesta doesn’t leave me groggy when I wake up.

A couple days ago I worked through a panic attack/flashback at work, and was pretty pleased with how I handled it. I recognized it and controlled my response. Inside I was still a mess, but that’s the nature of the beast. Deconstructing it with Deanna helped me understand where this latest dose of hell in my brain is coming from.

Last weekend I had a good long talk with a guy who’s been dealing with this shit for decades. At first I was depressed. Decades. It means I’ll never be normal. But then I looked at his life, and he’s a caring, giving, and content person. He still deals with shit, but he has his life under control and it’s a good life. So I’m encouraged.

Sometimes people are critical of me when I slam religion. I do it because I know what it’s done to me, and what it has done and is doing to millions of others.

Recovering,

Rich Lyons

Working through it

Here’s the latest from the Shrink.

I start Lunesta today, and double my double my dose of Prazosin to 10 mg.

I’m on Lexapro, but still too early in the ramp up process to tell if it’s doing anything.

Clonazepam for emergency relief during panic attacks.

Ritalin for focus at work.

For a while I bragged about being med-free, but always said I would go back on meds if I needed to. A series of events triggered some wicked flashbacks, panic attacks and blackouts.

We start again, knowing more than we did, and with better help and support than ever.

I share this because I know many of you care. I also believe it’s vital that we bring mental health issues to the forefront of discussion. I’m doing that.

Thank you for caring and for your support.

–Rich Lyons

Consider Supporting LAF

We haven’t asked for money before, but now we must.

If you like to LAF with us, we would ask that you go to livingafterfaith.com and make a donation. Due to a sudden increase in subscribers, our bandwidth cost is now our second largest expense next to rent. What was a few dollars a month, is now hundreds of dollars, and with our medical expenses, we’re in the hole.

We are working to find other hosting solutions, but for now, we need help.

If you can’t help, we certainly understand. If you can, we appreciate it more than you realize.

Thanks,

Rich and Deanna Joy Lyons

Hasidic No More – Episode 62

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Ari Mandel tells of his escape from one of the strictest Jewish communities in America.

http://www.scribd.com/rlitzlon/d/93192819-Stadium-Seating-for-Internet-Morals-WSJ-com
https://www.facebook.com/events/320642868009045/328043400602325/?notif_t=plan_mall_activity

http://www.nytimes.com/2012/05/10/nyregion/ultra-orthodox-jews-shun-their-own-for-reporting-child-sexual-abuse.html?_r=4&pagewanted=all
http://heathenhassid.blogspot.com/2011/07/it-gets-besser.html

Shelley Segal Sings – Episode 61

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We met Shelley Segal in Washington, D. C. at the American Atheist Convention, and learned what a wonderful person she is, besides her great singing and song writing. In this episode, we meet Shelley, the former Jew, and find out where those passionate lyrics come from.

You’ll also get to hear 3 of Shelley’s songs on this episode. We’ve encoded it in crazy high quality, so it may take a few moments longer to download, the the sound in your ears will be worth it.

http://www.shelleysegal.com/

http://www.amazon.com/An-Atheist-Album/dp/B0067XULQW/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1336323752&sr=8-1

http://itunes.apple.com/au/artist/shelley-segal/id447804453

https://twitter.com/#!/ShelleySegal

https://www.facebook.com/shelley.segal.music

Mormon Exodus – Episode 60

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Libbie Grant joins us to interview Mark Palmer, President of the Humanists of Florida Association. Mark is a former Mormon, as is Libbie.

**Update** Libbie’s¬†Mormon loss-of-faith thriller, Baptism For The Dead, is now available if you’d like to read it! This link will get you the book in any format you want. It’s also available directly from Amazon.¬†https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/240430

http://xpalmer.podbean.com/2012/04/08/0014-human-tales-mormon-mythology-morality-and-mitt-romney/

http://www.exmormon.org/

http://www.postmormon.org/exp_e/

https://twitter.com/#!/Atheist_Esq

http://www.floridahumanist.org/